Helping Dollar Tree!

So yesterday after we got off we went to Walmart and Dollar Tree. Well when we parked I looked up and there was a kitten hiding under a van. I jumped out and started calling for her. She was very hesitant. So I stood up and got some cheese we just bought and set some on the ground. She didn’t hesitate after that. She was so skinny. I felt bad for the poor girl. So I got up and went inside Dollar Tree and bought her a can a friskies soft food. Michael bought two bowls and brought them to me. We put food and water in them and placed them under a bush to keep it cool. We stayed there for several minutes. But then he got ready to leave. I didn’t want to leave her. But we had no where to put her. Our house is already full as it is. So we got in the truck to leave and it was eating at me. I felt like I could have done more for her. I beat myself up all the way home. Then Michael wanted to make me happy and stop me from beating myself up. So we went back for her. We decided that we would keep her until we found her a home. So we got there and she moved down the road a little bit but we found her. She came right up to him when I started calling for her. She wasn’t crazy about the car ride but she was really good. She would crawl up my shoulder when she would freak out a little more. We got her home and she was attached to me.

So I hope I find her a loving home. She’s just as sweet as can be. She deserves a loving home.

We named her Dollar Tree just so wedidn’t have to say “that cat” or “her”.

Seeing her and helping her makes me want to open my cat shelter just that much more!

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Life Is Great!

It’s been a while, a long while, since I wrote. I’ve been so caught up and enjoying life that I hadn’t really thought about it.

But things have been really good. Yea sure there was a few things that wasn’t so good but everything worked out just fine.

I have been comparing myself to who I am now to who I was just a few months ago. I have grown more mature and grown more into myself.

There was a moment that changed it all. This moment happened about a month ago.

I was in Ruston helping a friend move and Michael was hanging with his sister but had to return to go to work. I hadn’t heard from him in a few hours and I thought nothing of it. Then I got a call from Michael’s dad. I answered it and Michael told me the news. He got into a wreck.

He told me he was fine but he had to go and he’d call me in a few minutes. What seemed like forever passed and he hasn’t called me back. So I called him and he started crying because he felt bad for wrecking the car. (We had just started renting to own the car). I told him the car didn’t matter. I didn’t car about the car. Cars are replaceable but he isn’t. He still felt bad. But he once again had to go to talk to the sheriff. I was stuck in Ruston still and had no way of getting back. I couldn’t be there for him when he needed me. But later that night I finally had a ride. I couldn’t wait to get back to him for so many reasons. He wouldn’t go to the hospital without me. So as soon as I got back we went straight there. They took x-ray of him and everything came back good, thankfully. We had a spat with one of the nurses because she was trying to force the shot onto him. He has a phobia of needles so he wasn’t taking it. So when she came through the door with the shot he started freaking out and I wasn’t going to have him go through that. So it took everything I had not to be rude or aggressive so as nicely as I could I told her no (again). She then tried to leave the shot on the counter in case he changed his mind. I held back once again and told her no and she needed to take it out of the room. She finally listens and puts it away. We get him discharged and get him home. He was in so much pain and it broke my heart to see him that way.

I was so scared. I almost lost him. The sheriff told him that if he had worn his seatbelt then he wouldn’t have made it. The airbags in the car were on recall apparently. The airbags had a piece of sharp metal in it. So having the seatbelt on the metal would have killed him.

If he would have died, I have no idea what I would do without him. He has become such a huge part of my life.

So I took that experience and decided that I had to start looking at the bright side of everything. No matter what it is. There is always a bright side. He is alive and nothing else matters.

So I have taken advantage over every opportunity to spend time with everyone that I love and care about. I don’t get mad anymore. I just don’t see the point in it anymore. No need in wasting my energy of anger when I can just live and be happy. Life isn’t perfect and nothing is going to work out perfectly so I’m just rolling with it and just being grateful of all the time I do get with him and everyone else.

I stopped wasting my time on those who just want to run their mouths and start drama or just want to use me for whatever reason. It’s not worth it. I don’t mind helping people but being used like a doormat I refuse it. So whenever I feel as of I’m being used I talk to that person and try and sort through itit but not every time it works out so nicely. But that’s fine. I can’t have people like that in my life.

Even all the side effects of being an empath has gotten easier and better to deal with. I don’t feel like it’s controlling me anymore. If and when the emotions do get out of hand I can still keep calm and deal with it a lot easier then I could before. I haven’t even been meditating or shielding lately either. I smudge every now and then just out of habit but I don’t feel the need to.

So after all the growing and changing I’ve done I’ve become way more protective, loving, confident, open, and happy.

So to whoever was watching over Michael that day I thank you! Thank you for saving his life. I will never be able to truly describe how much he means to me nor be able to describe how much I love him. I have never experienced so much love for one person on so many levels.

So many good things has happened to us lately and I’m so grateful for each and every single one of them.

One of the good things that’s happened is we got a new dog. We named her Ky Alue. She is so beautiful. But it breaks my heart to look at her sometimes because she’s so skidish of everything and everyone. We have gotten her to be a little bit less but anyone can tell she’s been scared. It breaks my heart to think that someone could be so mean to her. But she’s in great hands. We’ve been taking good care of her. We’ve gotten her to be less aggressive, territorial, and even gain a little bit of weight. She loves Alistair. They play all the time. If they aren’t playing then they’re asleep.

I’m so happy with my life. Yea sure it’s not perfect but no one’s life is. So I don’t regret any of the decisions I’ve made in my life. I wouldn’t change a thing. I’m so grateful each and every single day.

It’s Official!

So for a really long time I’ve been wanting to go look at a place that I’ve had in mind to have Michael and my wedding ceremony and reception at. It’s a little bit away but something about it felt right and I couldn’t let it go. I tried to move on from it and find a closer venue but it just wasn’t working. Nothing I found was as beautiful AND cheap as the one I had in mind.
Well after we got on our feet and got things going in the right direction, we were finally able to find a way to get down there and look.
We drove all the way there and we walked around the entire area. It was breath taking. I had so many ideas for everything. After walking around for a while we went up to the office and talked with the woman behind the desk. I got a set price and loads of information that made me more and more excited.
After we left I was talking to Michael about it and I told him that it had so much beauty that we wouldn’t have to decorate it all that much. If we did decorate it a lot then it would take away from the beauty of it and I really didn’t want that. He totally agreed.
Ever since then we’ve gotten so much more excited about it. We know exactly where we are getting married, it’s official!!!

Rewritting!

So I have decided that I’m going to rewrite Forbidden.

So far I have gone through Chapter Two. Everything is happening in same order and everything. I’m changing the wording, detail, and showing more of what the characters are like.

I’m really happy with it so far. Michael has read the first chapter and says that he likes it better. It shows that I’m coming more into myself as a writer.

Lets See…

I’ve tried doing this before but let’s see how well it works this time.

I want to hear from y’all. Tell me how the day went or favorite hobbies/passions. Tell me about you. Anything I want to know about y’all:)


Need To Stay Positive!

The passed few days have been stressful but I can’t allow it to get to me.

I have to stay strong and positive. So taking a break from everything for a day a two and see if I can get myself back on track.

I’ve actually been thinking of rewriting Forbidden. I don’t think a whole lot will change but I will probably change how some things play out. So wish my luck!

Let’s Get It Started!

As everyone knows it’s a new year.

Everyone’s making their new year resolutions. At first I wasn’t going to do any but I got to thinking and I’m only going to have one.

My new year resolution is to stay away from negative people and energy as much as possible. This year will be a happy one. I will meditate and connect with nature more. There is no point in letting the negative effect me any longer  I have everything that I could want. I have a wonderful fiancé, my own little family, and surrounded by people that I love.

So goodbye negativity, you will no longer hold a place in my life!

What are your new year resolutions?

Christmas Giving!

So Christmas has passed. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!
I had a great Christmas. I saw some people I haven’t seen in a long time. Oh how I missed them. Michael and I played Santa Claus. We went to Ruston and gave everyone their presents. Most of the people we went to, wasn’t even expecting anything from us. We got Nickelback, Smokey, and our new puppy Alistair gifts. They all love them.
Alistair is a pit/husky mix. He is absolutely adorable. He can be a handful sometimes. But what puppy isn’t.
We got Alistair several chew toys and a huge bed. He’s a little small for it but he’s going to grow into it. He loves it either way. He has his favorite chew toy too. He hardly touches the others. As long as he’s happy doesn’t matter what he touches and what he doesn’t touch.
Nickelback and Smokey got toys for me to play with them with and cat shelves. OH I’m so happy that they finally have shelves. I’ve been wanting to get them some for so long. They don’t use them as much as I’d hope but I’m sure with time they will.

I love Christmas. I love giving. I honestly don’t care if I get gifts, watching people open their gifts is the best gift. I love making people happy. Christmas is such a lovely holiday. It’s not about what you got or what you didn’t get. It’s about giving to others. It’s about spending time with those you love.
I got Michael so many things. There was one gift that made him so happy that he cried. I’m so happy that I could make him that happy. He got me exactly what I wanted, picture frames. All I wanted was something to make this place more homey. Give this place our own touch. We will be getting pictures printed very soon. We have made this place look so much better and with each day, we’re making it better and better.

What did everyone give this Christmas? Did it make you happy to watch others open their present? Was spending time with your family enough? Tell me about your Christmas! 🙂

Some People Say I’d Be A Great Therapist! But I Don’t Know…

Oh how the passed few weeks or so has been really draining and overwhelming lately. I couldn’t shake it. I had no control over my emotions. Just when I would get a hold of one, it’d change to something else. It was maddening.
Some said it was because of the two solar flares and the full moon. I don’t know if I believe that that would effect me. But then again I know that the last eclipse REALLY messed me up. So I suppose it is possible. Well anything really is.
So I guess I woke up on the right side of the bed, so to speak. My moods are back in my control. I feel calmer then usual. I feel blissful.
Oh how i miss being blissful. I wasn’t even getting the full blissful effect from Man, which honestly saddened me. Always before if I needed some stability I would go cuddle with Man for a few minutes and instantly I would feel better. But passed few weeks it wasn’t working.
But yesterday after I got off work I came home and that’s all I did. I cuddled with him for what felt like hours. Time seemed to drag on but fly by at the same time, not sure how that’s possible but it’s how it felt. The effect wasn’t immediate but I think it did a great effect on me.
I woke up practically singing and dancing. Singing and dancing at 4 in the morning, who does that?
I do apparently. I couldn’t help it. I felt, and still do, amazing.
The main song I keep on repeat was a new song I found a few days ago. It’s called “Miss Movin’ On” by Fifth Harmony. I lost count on how many times I listened to it in a row. I don’t ever get tired of listening to it.
So since I feel so great, I decided to spread some of the bliss.

If you feel like you can’t get passed an obstacle or if you just aren’t feeling great I want to take a few minutes and slow down.
Take a few minutes and think of the great things in life. No matter how small, think about them. Try not to think about all the horrible things or what has gone wrong. I know it’s hard to see the positive/good when you aren’t feel so. But once you start seeing the positive’good. You will soon to feel it. The negative will begin disappearing. It may not make it go away predominately but it will help with a temporary fix.
If this works for you, pass it on to someone else. Stranger, friends, or family. It doesn’t matter. Let’s help make everyone around you feel the positive feeling that you do.
If this doesn’t work then find a good friend or even a pet and just talk. Doesn’t have to be about all the troubles in the world. Just talk and be consumed in the conversation and forget the world. Forget about the complications and worries. Forget it all. Focus on the conversation at hand. We all want someone who will listen and someone who will let you talk for however long you need. Rambling on and on for hours, always helps me.
If nothing above helps you go for a walk with someone you love. You don’t have to talk, you can just enjoy each others’ company and being around nature.
But if all fails then maybe what you need most is a good cry. Not one you force or lasts a minute or two. Truly cry, let it out. Don’t stop it from pouring out. Just cry. Crying isn’t showing you are weak. Crying is natural. Every single person crying at some point in their life. Let your mind wonder, it will take you down a road that will make you really sad but maybe that’s the road you need to go down the most.
One of the above should help you in the smallest part. I hope it does. I really do. So keep the positive flow. As I’ve said once before in a post, Positive mind makes for positive outcome.

A Bit Of Rambling.

Later today Michael and I will be rearranging our living room around. How our living room is now, there’s no room for what we’re getting at Black Friday. He’s been wanting it for a long time. We can actually afford it now. How could I deny him it?

I love working at Haskell’s. Some people that get paid what we do, may not be enough. But to us, we feel rich. We were so broke and fighting so hard for so long with no income and having to relie on everyone for everything. Now the only thing we depend on someone for is a ride. But next week Michael will be working on that. So we won’t even be doing that for much longer. It feels so good to not depend on anyone but ourselves. We’ve come a long way. I’m so proud of us. We overcame so many obstacles. We couldn’t have done it without so many people. I’m so thankful for every single one of them every day. Since we started working, things have been a lot smoother and less stressful. There’s no guilt or self-hate for depending on others. I don’t have to worry about my babies not having food or anything. THANK YOU AGAIN TO EVERYO WHO HELPED!!!!