Forbidden!

So I downloaded BookWright and started making the e-book for Forbidden! All that is left is making sure the pages fit perfectly.
I’ve gone through and changed all fonts and spacing. Most is just tedious work but I know that when I’m done it will be completely worth it. 
So if anyone would like a couple chapters just let me know. I would love some input. 
Also the cover art will hopefully be ready soon. 
Everything is coming together so nicely. I get more and more excited every time I do something new with it. 🙂

It’s A Sad Day!

Today is a sad day. My heart is broken. I couldn’t do anything to save him. I tried everything I could think of. 

The other day a neighbor was arrested for animal cruelty.They thought they found all the kittens but turns out they left two behind. They were only a few weeks old. Since I’m the crazy cat lady of the neighborhood, they brought them to us. Two small gray and white kittens. One was fine. We gave them food and one ate. He was running around and playing with the others. But the other was not so lucky. The other wouldn’t eat anything. We tried giving him whole milk, kitten replacement milk, and soft food. He only drank the replacement milk but not much. We even tried letting him feed from Ana, but he wouldn’t. He was so weak. 
So we started looking around for vets and anything else we could think of that would help him. By this time it was seven in the evening so naturally nothing was open. The places that wasn’t, we couldn’t get a hold of. 
We were heartbroken. 
We couldn’t save him. We didn’t know what else to do. I asked for prayers because a miracle was what he needed. We woke up and he was gone. My heart broke even more. I started thinking, was there something more I could have done? Did I do all I could do? Why didn’t I save him? 
So many questions was going through my head. 
But honestly he did get a miracle. When we found him, he looked at peace. He didn’t look like he was in pain anymore. So hopefully in his last moments, the pain was gone and he was at peace. 
He is now buried and I will do what I can to prevent the other one from having the same fate. 

I Have To Stay Positive!

So these past few days have taken it’s toll on me.
My body is so sore and tense that it’s ridiculous. My mind is scattered all around.
So much has happened, yet at the same time feels like nothing at all.
Though it was all worth it. If I had to do it again, I would do it all again.
So I’m going to push passed it all and get up and do what needs to beout done. The pain will go away eventually.
So stay positive! I’m going to keep my mind there instead of focusing on all the pain and negative.
Congratulations to Alisha once again. I’m so happy for you.  

So stay positive everyone. The bad will always been there no matter what you do. But also will be the good. So why focus on bad when both are there?
A positive mind is a positive environment. 

Empath Is A Gift!!

Some may say that being an Empath is a curse. Well to me it’s not. It certainly can be though. But mostly it’s a beautiful gift. Not everyone can walk by someone they’ve never met and tell if they’re sad or happy.
Crowds can be very overwhelming but I’ve learned to block out everyone’s emotions, for the most part. I’m still learning though. It will come to me eventually. I try to practice on keeping my shield as strong as possible.
I’ve met a friend on Twitter and we connected instantly. I can’t explain how different my life has become since that day. She’s changed it in so many good ways. We talk about all of our problems and how we’ve dealt with side effects.
I’ve even bought quartz crystals for the both of us. I hold the crystal when I meditate. It seems to help a little. A little is definitely better then nothing.
But back to the reason I’m typing this, empath is a gift.
The other day, some kids set a fire and everyone was freaking out. Michael and I ran outside to see what the commotion was. Everyone started putting it out. I was overwhelmed with everyone’s emotions. It almost knocked me over, it was so strong. Then once I realized how overwhelming it was, my body started to soak it all up. I tried to stop it but it seemed impossible. Not only was it soaking up all the bad but my body was giving what happiness I had. I couldn’t stop either. But after my body started doing it, I realized after a few seconds. I took a moment from all the crazy and closed my eyes. I concentrated on the ball of light that shines from my center. I imagined it getting brighter and surrounding me further. Once I felt calm and at peace I stopped. I realized Istopped had stopped soaking all the negative. I wasn’t giving the happiness but I was certainly radiating it. Soon everyone started calming down . After a few more minutes the fire was out and I felt everyone further calm down.
It felt good to know I had at least played a small role in defusing the situation and keeping everyone from freaking out anymore then they already were. No one was hurt or injured.
There is so much good with being an Empath. You can’t concentrate on the bad. If you do everything around you will become it.
Keep a positive mind and good vibes will flow.

Kittens, Vampire Academy, And Birthday :)

I haven’t posted in a while because, to be honest, I haven’t felt like doing much of anything. I’ve been such a blah mood for a very long time now. I’ll get spurts of happy and all. But for most of the part I’ve been blah. But I’m getting out of it. It’s just taking a little bit. So I figured while I wasn’t in that kind of mood I would post. 

We are down to three kittens now. 
One died. We aren’t sure why she did. She just did. The others are perfectly fine. She was the runt of the group so maybe that’s why. I don’t know. 
Then last night we gave one to a neighbor. She was so excited. She thanked us many times. Her voice was so high pitched. Seeing her that happy and excited made me want to open my cat shelter just that much more. 
Well technically we’re down to two. We are holding one until our wedding. A friend of mine that lives in Delware will be coming down for our wedding. She’s going to take her kitty when goes. 

So my all time favorite book series, Vampire Academy, started up a campaign on August 6th. We, the fans, have a month to raise $1.5 million. If we reach that goal then we get Frostbite. I am so excited! I don’t have much money but what extra I have, I donated. And I will continue to do that until the month is up. I’ve even posted on Facebook that if someone wanted to get me an early Christmas gift they could donate and give me the perk. I really hope we can raise the money. 

And tomorrow is Michael’s birthday. I have something in mind as to what I’m going to get him but not completely sure if that’s what I really want to do. But I’ll get it figured out. Happy Early Birthday! 🙂

My Babies!

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My babies are adjusting to the scheduled feeding really well. Each day I’m leaving less and less food out during the day. I”m taking the transition slowly so hopefully they take to it better. It’s working. 
They get one can of wet food in the morning then hard food at night. They love the wet food more. 
Do you schedule or free feed your cat(s)? Why aren’t you doing the other choice? I want to hear from you! 🙂

I Feel Accomplished!

Well I stayed up all night but I’m finally done. I have finally finished editing Forbidden.
Well actually finished editing it the first time. I am going to go through and edit it at least one more time. I might do more but it’s going to depend on how I feel. If I feel Forbidden doesn’t need it then I won’t. 
Hopefully I did a good enough job that one last one will be enough. Here’s to hoping. 
If not, oh well. I’m not complaining. I want it as perfect as I can get it. No matter how many times I have to edit it. 
Once I feel it’s complete, publishing phase. So excited. 
If anyone would like a chapter or two please comment below with your email. I’ll gladly send it. 
I would love the feedback. 
Thank you to all who is interested. If you aren’t well poo on you. Just kidding 🙂

Oh Rain!

So all today it’s been raining. Oh how I love the sound of rain. It calms me and puts me to sleep.
It helps me meditate better. I don’t know what it is about the rain but it has always done that. Maybe it’s because I feel like I’m connecting with nature. Or maybe it’s all in my head and I think all the stress and worry is washing away. Either way it helps.
Also I got my crystal today. I’m going to meditate with it later, so I guess we’ll see if it helps. I’m so excited.
All the kittens are getting nice and fat from the soft food. They love it. I’m trying to keep them on a regular feeding but I’m so forgetful. But I’m going to work on it and keep them on the same schedule.